| I just wanna bring you down so badly...
long time no update. definitely wrote this a while ago. well most of it anyways. none of these are about anyone particular. although they could be. some of its repetitive. some if it probably doesnt make sense. i was just thinking randomly. some things just make me wonder...
Do things really happen for a reason?
Why do people come in and out of our lives?
Why do people always have to change?
Why do friendships have to change?
Is it possible to have been truly best friends with someone who you never even talk to anymore?
Because if they were really best friends, wouldnt they have done anything in the world to make it better?
How can someone just forget about their best friend?
Why is it that people are so stubborn that it ruins things?
How do we know the difference between the truth and a lie?
Why is it that there's always that one person who can have such a strong affect on you?
Why is there always someone that you know you would be better off without, but cant seem to forget about them?
Why do some people forgive so easily?
Why do some people never forgive at all?
Does true love fade?
Or is there always going to be something there for that one person?
And if true love does fade, why?
Once you fall in love, can you fall out of love?
Why do friendships fade away?
How do you know if it's true love or not?
Why do people always think they're in love?
Is there even such thing as true love?
Why is it that no matter how hard you try to make things better with some people, things never get better?
Why is it that when you try forgetting about people, it never works?
What's the point in making promises when they're always being broken?
many questions. any answers?
its kind of sad to think that if we had just listened, or been there, or just realized what was going on, we could've helped and it wouldnt be this bad. its also kind of sad to think that people care only when its too late... i dont know if this makes sense.
this was pointless because nobody reads it. but thats ok.
   
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| soooo it's been a while. in fact. its been so long that they've even added titles to xanga. how cool! but yeah so the only reason i'm updating this is well because.. it's williams sweet 16! and i promised him a really long time ago that i'd dedicate a special entry to him. because last year apparently when i wrote in this on his birthday i didnt say happy birthday  anyways i have no idea if he remembers so i guess i'll find out... haha. i bet he's gonna be surprised that i remembered to do this...
anyways so i just wanted to say... happy sweet 16 and i looooove you. and you're just the coolest person ever. andddd you're totally taking me around in your cool car that you're gonna get. because... i dont know. haha. because you love me? haha jk..
heyyyyy i'm on the phone with youuuuuu. and you remember me saying i would do this. thats no fun... oh well!
anyways. so yeah. i'm totally gonna make you a birthday present. andddd we're hanging out.... soon! because its your birthday andddd we have to. because its a must. ok?
anywaysssssss i'm gonna go talk to youuuuuu because.. yeah.
i loooooooooove you! happy sweet 16!
   
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| All hail the heartbreaker.
wow i really hope i get to go to boston next month. i need a break. *sigh*
i'm supposedly getting my permit today. but who knows.
people suck.
people should listen to rachel when she says "hurt my jaja and i hurt you."
because she's cool like that. and i'm jaja. haha.
she's gonna be hurting some people soon.
oh well. haha i love her.
we got in lots of trouble at drivers ed.. woops.
we're just little rebels arent we?!
anyways. back to people sucking.
so yeah. people suck. because they lie.
then they think you dont know. when really you do.
but i've come to realize i dont even care anymore.
and because i have friends who are cooler than those kids.
and who tell me the truth and help me out.
because they actually care.
go them!
but you know what? its ok.
because i've moved on.
and i'm finally listening to people.
sorry it took a while haha. i'm slow.
wow this summer could be incredibly weird.
but we'll deal with that when it comes.
like i said. i need to get out of dallas.
and if i go to boston i get to see my sister and my second sister.
and they're just wonderful lol.
oh and of course the all american rejects. with rooney.
cant forget them!
oh yeah so the PSAT's were yesterday.
it was alright i guess. it wasnt as bad as i thought.
and now we have no school today because of Yom Kippur.
but we have school tomorrow and that sucks.
i think i'm gonna attempt to do history or something since i'm almost failing.
uh oh!
homecoming this weekend!
and i'm going with my wonderful girls that i love.
and we're gonna have so much more fun than all of you.
   
What if I ripped your heart apart at the seams maybe then you'd know how I feel. |
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| you write such pretty words, but life is no storybook. love is an excuse to get hurt, and to hurt.
*sigh* i'm so bored. i've been home for like two days. because i'm sick. and there's like nothing on tv. except there will be at 1! haha boy meets world comes on. i love that show. i havent seen it since like summer-ish. yup i'm watching music videos right now. anyways i'm kind of hungry.. but the only thing i can eat is dry toast and soup... joy.
hmm anyways. everyone else is at school. but i was just talking to william for like... an hourish. and aly was online. but i think they're at class now.
hmmm well boy meets world is on. so i think i'm gonna go watch it now. lol i hope everyone had a good day at school!
   
i've got a hunger but i cant seem to get full. i need some meaning i can memorize, the kind i have always seems to slip my mind. |
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| Keep on smiling what we go through, one stop to the rhythm that divides you.
ohmygod. i am so hyper. i really just scared valerie. hahaha oh well. so yeah anyways i went to the esd vs. st marks game and... well... we lost.... sadly... it was sad... buttttt i had so much fun! i saw aly who i hadnt seen in like a year and we like ran up to each other and were like ohmygod! haha i love that girl. me and her together equals major hyperness. i really honestly think i scared her homecoming date. haha hopefully not but i mean who knows. and i saw some oldschool lamplighter people!! it was so awesome! that game totally made me all happy tonight and it was awesome! aly and i are supposed to hang out again soon because we just had way too much fun together! haha wow. it was great. a lot better than the last football game i went to. this one was just more exciting and a lot of people were there so wooo! haha i'm so happy that today was a good day. it was great. but oh! alexis and i were gonna go on her roof and look at all the pretty stars and talk and have a roof party but we couldnt find the ladder. so we had a room party because we're cool like that. yup. we are. haha love you!
oh. william. guess who i saw?!? i was gonna text you but then i ... got distracted. so i'm gonna leave you a little message in here in make you feel all cool and special and stuff. and i'd tell you now but its like 1 am and i dont wanna wake you up even though you're gonna be all like "i dont care you're allowed to wake me up" blah blah blah. yes. i'm hyper. so you're lucky i'm not waking you up! haha and oh i could just tell you tomorrow but i know i'll forget so here! guess whoooooooo!?! haha
anyways. so umm hmm... my week was alright. the power went out... wednesday night.. the night with all the raining and stuff haha and it sucked though because i had two big tests to study for so hopefully i did ok because if not well then that would be bad because its kind of hard to study in the dark/by flashlight. hmmm well... i'm way to hyper to be sitting here typing so i shall go now
   
When I'm with you I feel like I could die and that would be alright... alright. |
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